++deception through a goddess++

2011-02-06T17:02:00.000+08:00

Incompatible, it don't matter though
Cause someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do, you're not easy to find

Is it possible Mr. Lovable is already in my life?
Right in front of me or maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit?
There's enough for everyone
But I'm still waiting in line

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Oh, somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone

2010-07-19T19:05:00.003+08:00

How do I get close
When she looks like an angel
~~A moment of her time just seems impossible to me~~
it's hard to find the words,
to get to know this stranger
I'm scared of what she'll say if
what I say sounds incomplete
And it feels like we belong together
Can someone tell me where do I start

Cuz, I can't keep on feelin' the way I do
I can't keep on, hiding my heart from you
I got to say something before
Someone else comes through,
I can't keep on loving you,
From a distance

She's always on my mind, there's
no room left for thinking
I'm tired of waiting slowly fading
it needs to happen now.
Cuz I'm running out of time,
and I feel this ship is sinking
The doors are closing I am frozen I need her around
And it feels like we belong together
Can someone tell me where do I start

Cuz, I can't keep on feelin' the way I do
I can't keep on, hiding my heart from you
I got to say something before
Someone else comes through,
I can't keep on loving you,
From a distance
From a distance
From a distance
From a distance

I CANT HIDE
Cuz, I can't keep on feelin' the way I do
I can't keep on, hiding my heart from you
I got to say something before
Someone else comes through,
I can't keep on loving you..
I can't keep on loving you,
From a distance

k

2010-03-31T01:26:00.002+08:00

so im sitting in my hotel room now. the holiday inn kuwait. just finished watching the man utd bayern match at this awesome place across the street. smoothest shisha ever with like 6 mega huge flatscreens giving me a headache to which one i should angle my body to view. and uber yummy kebabs with chips. disappointing to see my team lose last minute to a defense blunder but still an awesome night out with my teammates (:

so the tournament didnt go well at all. my timing was pretty off and i had alot of stuff going on in my head i somehow couldnt get rid of. games a little rusty now, think i havent been competing enough the past year. my heart actually pounded so fast on the first day. my adrenaline was uncontrolable like the last time and it wasnt such a great sight. i couldnt make the finals and im just left with two days in this beautiful desert city where the days are hot and sunny and the nits are chill and windy.

gonna go to bed now and sleep over a heavy head. quite pleased that i have went through a whole week and more without alcohol and my body is feeling quite the clean! detox in the middle east. gonna hope to wake up to a hearty breakfast and maybe an hour or so at the gym. all these kebabs and daily baskin robins are just gonna make me rounder whahhaha. oh well.

goodnight world.

2010-03-26T13:59:00.002+08:00

okay so im in kuwait now. its about 5 hours behind singapore. really nothing much to do here except to sit in the hotel room playing online poker until its time to have a meal. bowling starts tomorrow and im hoping we can get in a few practice throws today in between. the exchange rate is really madness. 5sgd = 1kuwait dinar. and yesterday's dinner was 6dinar? thats like 30 dollars and you dont really feel it cos its like a single digit bill. wtf man.

anyhow i gotta settle alot of things in the back of my head by tonight if im going to have any chance of bowling well in the kuwait open. so much things going through my head and its been piling up. maybe i'll try to go run it off in the gym later or something. life has been so hectic back in singapore even with a freak accident 5 hours before i left. my girlfriend's friend kinda walked through my glass door at home and really severed her left shin pretty badly. just hope she recovers well. god bless you margreth!

no bb service for me here. its wicked expensive. like 2cents per kB. so anything just text me peeps. going for breakfast now. - eugene

2010-03-06T21:58:00.002+08:00

its been way too long since i last wrote an entry. decided to put one in before heading off for a crazy night with cosmic gate. whoop whoop.

well ive been posted to sispec charlie coy and i out of coursed (of course! pun intended). found out i have like a huge ass back injury. like 2 degenerated disc, 1 slip disc and a bulging disc which would hopefully down pes me to c9l9 or my life this year is totally ruined. currently attached to the sispec guardroom and the school sergeant major, mwo limsongsiam is giving me total hell. sigh hate my life in army.

things on the bowling end have been pretty good. finally got promoted to the elite squad after like forever. got many tournaments to prepare for and its such a pity im in army now. 5 majors this year including asian youth cship in kuwait, asian bowling cship in uae, world men cship in germany, world youth cship in finland and asian games in guangzhou! really hope i make it to the asian games squad and get my dream gold medal. eyeing it since i started competitive bowling. one step nearer now. silly encik of mine didnt sign my leave form so i missed out on euro-challenge in paris and msia open. now ive to pray he releases me for kuwait in two weeks time. game has been a little rusty and i hope i can polish up myself again =s

been doing alot of reflecting lately. decided i wanna go overseas and build like a church or something meaningful after army before continuing with my studies. these's so much we can do for society and its so sad whenever you watch the news about all these chaos happening. we just take our own perfect lives for granted. we face problems like no money for pertrol or cant leave camp to attend some party. when people out there, fellow humans are wondering if they can survive the next 24hours cos they have no more food, living in poverty. no clothes or shelter. medication or clean water to drink. we're all too pampered and spoilt. not trying to be a hypocrite cos i know that im among the top of the list.

my life lately. army. bowling. partying.
hope it changes soon, i cant keep partying like that.
hopefully i'll check back in to blog again.

~~three.sunflowers~~

2009-12-20T14:17:00.002+08:00

its been way too long...

I've practiced this for hours, gone round and round
And now I think that I've got it all down
~~And as I say it louder I love how it sounds~~
Cause I'm not taking the easy way out
Not wrapping this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

It came out like a river once I let it out
When I thought that I wouldn't know how
Held onto it forever just pushing it down
Felt so good to let go of it now
Not wrapping this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
There's nothing here in this heart left to borrow
There's nothing here in this soul left to say
Don't be surprised when we hate this tomorrow
God know we tried to find an easier way
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The loving look that's left your eyes
That's why this comes as no, as no surprise

If I could see the future and how this plays out
I bet it's better than where we are now
But after going through this, it's easier to see the reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

The kiss goodnight, it comes with me
Both wrong and right, our memories
The whispering before we sleep, just one more thing that you can't keep
Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The loving look that's left your eyes
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

2009-10-05T03:30:00.002+08:00

grr reality sets in when im so near my enlistment date. im just a day away and all the enthusiasm i had initially are beginning to wear off. im actually kinda dreading to go in now. its a really horrifying thought that goes through my head. sigh. god help me go through this.

2009-09-28T15:51:00.002+08:00

hmm im back from manila. thank god. what a hectic race back to singapore.
it was a depressing 7 hour wait outside the airport. the sudden rain in the wee hours of the morning only grew more aggresive as the morning daylight rose upon us. by the time we left the hotel for the airport, 2/3 of manila was covered with water at least knee high. damn ondoy typhoon. the bus we took had to detour twice to find alternate routes to the airport due to massive floodings. the first two steps of the bus on the inside was filled with water seeping through the doors and as much as it seemed fun, i was pretty panicky on the inside. though quite amusinglu when we drove past what initially was the huge canal for their waste water to flow, it looked just like a road on the same level as us. that was how high the water level had risen to. it kinda looked like a super empty expressway which nobody bothered taking. as more water seeped into our little bus, weighed down with tons of bowling equipment, taxis floated by uncontrolably and village children, underestimating the floods, came out to swim the great ondoy olympics. it was really quite a sight. when we finally reached the airport, we were relieved, it was on much higher ground than any other place we were before. though there was one problem. the massive floods have caused some landslide ding dong thingy which tripped the entire airport into a haunted pitch black building. yes a blackout. and pardon me, i was in this super distressed and tired condition from the sleepless night and casino time the night before. i resulted into taking a 30min nap outside the airport with what i can only describe as the world's most uncomfortable and back-breaking 'mattress'. yes. i slept with my feet hung up on the railing, jacket all zipped up, unglamourously lying down on 4 bowling balls in a tote bag and a 2 ball trolley. nonetheless, it was really quite an experience. so desperately looking for comfort. hungry, tired, restless, and needing to pee, after a 6 hour wait, we were finally allowed to go into the recently evacuated airport for our MANUAL checkin. yes you heard me. a dozen helpful pinoys trying gallantly to tug and pull our crazy motherheavy bowling equipment onto the conveyour belt (which wasnt working) and down to the chute to the plane. with proper sanitation in sight, i pinched my nose and walked in to take a piss (: ahhh. delightful! walking towards our gate and passing all the different airline lounges in dimly lit corridors, we found our gate and what seemed to look like a huge refugee camp. man it was one hell of a hectic journey. thank God the flight back was homely and half empty. we had the luxury of having three seats to ourselves (: i love SQ.

on a much lighter note, i didnt bowl well this trip. didnt make the finals and it was rather depressing watching my entire team of 7 bowling the finals. while i just sit, i mean stand, there and try to be another pair of eyes for em. coach told me that he could tell i havent been competing in awhile because my shot making wasnt as accurate as it used to be. oh well. i guess i have to worry about all that after army. hopefully, i come out in one piece! great to be back and i've just a week left before shaving my head and being a common recruit. gonna make the best out of my time.

typhoon ondoy have moved on towards vietnam and my entire family is there now in hoi-an. by the beaches and apparently the winds are outrageously strong. pray they have a safe journey back tonight. okay world, time out for cyber space!

2009-09-15T16:43:00.004+08:00

hey everyone. its been way too long since i last blogged and im so angry now because i just lost the entire last ten minute of blogpost cos my phone doesnt have a auto save function. rahh. id rather use my lappy anyways. so im just waiting to go into army now. preparing for euromed in philipines from the 20th to 26th of this month so i gotta really train hard. havent been bowling as often as i used to last year. woohoo, so exciting to hit the casinos with my teammates. its gonna be awesome fun!

anyway about my hongkong trip. it was really really da bomb! so so fun over there. went up with my sister, sofie and laura. met up with kawai, fuwei followed by teri and sarah when i was there. we kinda planned to clash our dates there so we could all hang out and stuff. the shopping was crazy, the food was crazier and the partying was nuts. went to quite a number of private clubs there, dragon-i, prive, vola and a few more along the entire lamkuaifeng. though i think singapore is not open to the idea of members only clubs. its gonna be hard to kope with because coming to think of it, you must have such a big base of regulars and nobody gets special priviledges because... well.. everybody is a 'member' right. so its jus filled with hot models and who's who i guess. really fun stuff. dont even get me started on the food. more than half of my g10's storage space is filled with pictures of foodstuff. im way too lazy to upload them on the blog but ive posted most of it up on fb anyways. i really really enjoyed myself there. too many incidents to name during the trip but i really love the agnès b area at IFC. there's a pretty little shop, with a boutique cafe with awesome macaroons, even a frigging florist man. hahaha. ah well i kinda made it a point to myself to go back to hongkong once every year for a trip like that. so anyone interested next year? hawhaw. lemme know!

i wanna go for a weekend beach retreat before i enter the armyy. thinking of like phuket, bali, bintan or even tioman. anywhere nice to recommend me?

been pretty busy with the girlfriend and the bros of late too. ahh anyways, gotta get ready for training already. tata everyone :D

ilu<3

2009-08-11T17:07:00.001+08:00

sigh im so retarded

stepped into the shower after waking up from an afternoon nap, stripped down and on the tap. only to realise that i just showered an hour ago -.-

i think im going crazy

2009-07-21T12:02:00.002+08:00

hello world.
once again my frugal attempt to keep this block somewhat alive.

i cant wait for thursday to come. finally a good little getaway with close friends in hongkong. away from all the crazy in singapore. crazy school, crazy bowling, crazy stress. cant imagine all that shopping i would get to do. summer sale in hongkong is probably the shopping event of the year. then when i get back, its rush up report and gear up for presentation time! hopefully after that, my special little gigantic getaway2 would be on its way (: cant wait.

i fell pretty ill on friday. woke up with a sore body from gym and a inflamed throat dying of thirst. caught harry potter that night and it wasnt as good as i expected it to be. the book stated that there was suppose to be a massive fight scene towards the end whereby everybody fought each other and it resulted in snape killing dumbledore. grr was looking forward to that scene but they kinda simplified the whole 20 page fight scene. anywayy, i went to see the doctor on saturday morning and he diagnosed me with just a typical common flu virus. though my temperature kept rising upon reaching home. hmm its great to feel loved and being so well taken care of by people that matter to you most. where they risk their own health just to be by your side and keep you company <3 anyway i was feeling a little better and we went to catch OwnTimeOwnTarget. its some funny play about army life. very vulgar but extremely entertaining. though it got a little dull somewhere towards the end. ah well. all in all, a very loving weekend!

happy birthday daddy (:

well the girls have left for world women champs in lasvegas, so here's a good luck shoutout to you all! GOOD LUCK GIRLS (:

kae, back to that report... grr..

2009-06-30T11:20:00.002+08:00

hey everyone!
been pretty busy the past couple of weeks. trained for a week and im finally learning new things again. getting some work done on my axis rotation and side rolling. not too shabby (: school starts this week ): bahh. im still in such a holiday mood. the past two weeks were awesome and it seem to passby as if it were the weekend or something. caught quite a few shows. pelham 123 was really good. i just love all these action/adventure shows. transformers sucked though. i felt it was trying too hard and it was a little too comical for me. ah well. gotta start training up for the PBAP selections in two weeks time, hopefully i can make the top six (:

planned quite a long july vacation. i'll be heading to hongkong with my sister, kawai, sofie and laura. might meet up with fuwei there from the 23rd to 27th. followed by a probable PBAP tourament over in philipines from the 28th to 3rd. so quite a packed two weeks away from home, though i dont wanna go for either trips now due to some personal dedications, im thinking i should try my best to make the cut for the PBAP trip. i could really use a bowling competition to start firing up my desire to bowl again.

13 days straight...

2009-06-14T14:01:00.003+08:00

another week has gone by so quickly.

im so screwed. i thought my DOA common test was on wednesday 4pm. hence i woke up and studied from 9 all the way till 3 only to reach school and i find out that i got the dates all mixed up and my common test was actually on monday =X sighh. way to throw away 30%.

on a lighter note, i took a whole week off bowling to let my wrist recover and stuff. its much better now :D i can actually move it around and lift heavy things again. its been ages since i went mambo and this week's mambo was actually quite fun with such dandy company. had an awesome awesome second half of the week and i managed to attend frisbee on saturday! such a long time since i woke up for frisbee but then again, it rained so heavily and the pitch was all muddy ): reminded me of the days i used to play rugby and we could all roll around the ginger flavoured mud!

ahh well. school isnt going as great as it should be. everything else is awesome (:

2009-06-04T23:35:00.002+08:00

ahh its the finals tomorrow and i feel pretty psyched!
just hope i dont mess up by not getting enough rest, last year i was super super tired after the youth in the morning so this year im gonna try to retain the energy. hopefully the lane and i matches up well and the score will do the talking! wish me luck people!

been really busy with bowling lately, need to catch up with alot of work in school and ive been having alot of side distractions as well. an awesome distraction i would say. then again, everything has its ups and downs.

having alot of thoughts going through my mind lately, even in my dreams. oh well..

2009-05-26T11:29:00.000+08:00

have you ever met somebody who turned your life around.. completely?

2009-05-20T12:05:00.001+08:00

ouu, a perfect song to describe my emotions right now (:

Chasing Pavements - Adele

I've made up my mind, don't need to think it over
If I'm wrong I am right, don't need to look no further
This ain't lust, I know this is love

But if I tell the world, I'll never say enough
'Cause it was not said to you
And that's exactly what I need to do if I'd end up with you

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?

I build myself up and fly around in circles
Wait then as my heart drops and my back begins to tingle
Finally could this be it?

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep on chasing pavements
Should I just keep on chasing pavements?

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?

.. so should i?

2009-05-04T13:14:00.003+08:00

its may already!
well april have been a great month. the best month ive had this whole year i guess. its been sort of an roller coaster ride. lets see.

ive started my bowling training again. three times a week, tuesday till thursday. much less compared to the five times a week last year. needed to start getting back my timing and releases. like coach henry said, eugene you just need to wipe off the dust and squirt some oil. really gotta put in alot more effort if im going to start thinking about performing well during the singapore open.

school have been pretty productive. i havent really skipped a lesson yet. sigh i really hate what im learning. like its totally bugging me that im not going to do anything related to whatever i am learning about right now. furthermore, i know nuts about my final year project and my supervisor have been chasing me like crazy to submit my terms of reference. i cant even put together my project scope. sheeesh. i hate e commerce.

been having alot of doubtful mood swings lately. think its the time of the month again. hahahhahah. anyways, im sure God has a great plan planned out ahead for me. and oh oh, i quit smoking (: finally.

everythings gonna be alright, tomorrow's gonna be a brighter day!

bridget and sniffles (:

2009-04-13T09:50:00.000+08:00

a year ago, this would have been the saddest day of my life. though right now it seems quite endearing for me thinking back on how long it took to get over that little situation which totally revolutionised my full year of singlehood and young adult life.

on a lighter note, ive stopped blogging for quite abit. decided to put up a small little post to update on whoever still reads this. suspension is gonna end in exactly a week's time. then i'll have to start training up for singapore open and try to show that i still have it in me for any glimpse of hope for my bowling future. cos i figured i wont be travelling much this year cos theyre focusing mainly on the ayg squad. makes sense though. however, i went to bowl last week and my my. not cool man. my ball speed is super slow and i have so much more rotation compared to last time. sparing and all have been pretty rusty too. i would reckon it takes me 2 weeks to get back my timing and form again. not too long i suppose.

been working the past 6 weeks at an events firm. pretty fun. having normal sleeping hours for once. did a few proposals for basketball association, ben n jerrys and even helping out in some charity fund raiser. really an eye opener. i recommend everybody to go find some sort of work at different fields during their vacations. you can really learn alot and prepare you for what you want to do in the future. stopping work in 3 days time before school reopens next week. which really sucks because that means i'll be all lonely in my final year.

planned a trip to thailand with andrew this thursday actually. but with the current situation and state of emergency that was instated last night, parents are advising me not to go. we'll see what happens.

okay! gotta head back to work now. need to do up one more item before i have my lunch.
take care everyone!

2009-03-10T01:43:00.001+08:00

fuck
i hate bowling.

FUCK BOWLING.
FUCK EVERYBODY.
GO AWAY

2009-03-01T19:58:00.000+08:00

everything is very messy now.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
anyhow,

I, I don't know why I miss you so much
Yeah I, I don't know why I still feel your touch
You, you left me feeling high and dry
With nothing, nothing but the question why

Yeah you, I guess you had another direction
And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection

Chorus:
If you call me today
I'll say that I'm fine
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice
It's just a lie
You knew what you had
You still walked away leaving me in this mess
My love for you is deep and meaningless

You, you knew what you were doing to me
And I, I guess I was too blind to see
Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad
But I'd do it again to relive what we had
(Damn that's sad)

There are many things left to remind me
Of a love that I just can't leave behind me

Chorus (Repeat)

2009-01-07T15:34:00.001+08:00

happy new year everyone. sorry ive been mia for so long.
promise to start blogging soon. alot of work to catch up with school.
but for now....

盼不到我爱的人
我知道我愿意再等
疼不了爱我的人
片刻柔情它骗不了人
我不是无情的人
却将你上的最深
我不忍我不能
别再认真忘了我的人
离不开我爱的人
我知道爱需要缘分
放不下爱我的人
因为了解他多么认真
为什么最真的心
碰不到最好的人
我不问我不能
拥在怀中直到他变冷
爱我的人为我痴心不悔

我却为我爱的人甘心一生伤悲
在乎的人始终不对谁对谁不必虚伪
爱我的人为我付出一切
我却为我爱的人流泪狂乱心碎
爱与被爱同样受罪
为什么不懂拒绝痴情的包围

2008-12-09T17:39:00.001+08:00

灯光也暗了
音乐低声了
口中的棉花糖也融化了
窗外阴天了
人是无聊了
我的心开始想你了
始做勇者欢迎您!
电话响起了
你要说话了
还以为你心里对我又想念了
怎么你声音变得冷淡了
是你变了
是你变了
灯光熄灭了
音乐静止了
滴下的眼泪已停不住了
天下起雨了
人是不快乐
我的心真的受伤了
胡彦斌(主)简美妍(副):
电话响起了
你要说话了
还以为你心里对我又想念了(又想念了)
怎么你声音变得冷淡了
是你变了(是你变了)
是你变了
灯光熄灭了
音乐静止了
滴下的眼泪已停不住了(已停不住)
天下起雨了(ha...)
人是不快乐
我的心真的受伤了
我的心真的受伤了

2008-12-05T12:07:00.002+08:00

gossip girl quote by lily vanderwood.

lily: tell me something rufus
rufus: what?
lily: something you shouldnt

awwwwwwww ):

2008-12-03T15:00:00.001+08:00

haha remember this saying -

ho hum the wind and the rain

2008-12-02T13:04:00.003+08:00

woohoo. an entire month without blogging.
so lets see what ive been up to lately:

bowled pretty well in taiwan. first time i ever made the step ladders of a mens open tournament. hahah. though i messed up in the step ladders because i was way too kanchiong, i lost and came in fifth but again, what an experience! ouu taiwan trip was really really fun. posted the pictures up on facebook so you guys can check it out there. 臭豆腐, 版条 and how can i ever forget 台湾啤酒! best beer in the world i swearr. hahaha.

messed up my singapore nationals though. qualified for the youth and men masters pretty easily and i won the youth division. however, my target for this tournament was to win the open division as most of the elite squads were away and i had a pretty good shot at it. however, made a mistake the night before and i totally couldnt concentrate the next day =( oh well, another lesson learnt.

been struggling quite a bit with school work. i dont know how to do my stupid final year project and its due in slightly less than two months! thank god i have great classmates who always help me out! thanks everyone =) ahh i hate my wdd module.

and how can i forget, congrats to jasmine on being our world champion =) bowled fantastic there in mexico! and to our commonwealth team too, great bowling =) chappy, jen, ahger and rems!

i lost my damn camera at zouk last wed when i passed it to a friend to help me take a picture and she passed it to somebody and they pass pass pass pass till i never got it back =X

bahh attempting to cut down on my party nights now. its like almost 3 to 5 times a week and every single day being spent not too sober. i know its gonna take a toll on my health and my liver in the future so i really try to exercise and all as much, but then ive still gotta cut down!

okay i shall go back to studying and trying to pay attention in class right now ):
take care - cruel, ruthless, ill-intentioned, gossiping, backstabbing world that we all love!

2008-10-28T10:45:00.001+08:00

im off off off to taiwan!
hopefully the hotel there has internet connectivity and i'll blog there instead.
really too lazy to blog right now. hahahah

im cooler than the other side of your pillow yo.

2008-10-22T12:37:00.002+08:00

i really havent been blogging much.
well had a really dull boring weekend. had poly-ite bowling champs and i didnt do well. 4th all events and team came in 2nd. bah. and for that, i skipped frisbee =( i miss frisbee. didnt do much that night. wasnt feeling too good. went to toss some frisbee with shay and all at botanics. followed by prawning at pasir ris. ahhaha. me and jay just sat out and watched soccer =) sunday was alright. went to visit grandma and did grocery shopping with the parents! dinner at night with dad's friends and went to chill after that over a bottle of wine and such. bah i thought i had a bad case of gastric on monday morning. turns out to be alcohol poisoning. hahaha. wth is that? dirty alcohol? oh well but im feeling so much better now. gave myself one more day off school and i'll be back to my normal busy schedule tomorrow! i cant wait for next week to come. taiwan baby! its gonna be fun fun fun =)

man i love this line
连你一个微笑也都会让我醉
难道笑容没了距离有了快乐也走了

2008-10-13T11:39:00.002+08:00

ohmygosh.
school started today. back to try-to-mug mode after a long two month vacation. its super frustating sitting in a little booth desk thing the school assigned you to and there's nothing to do. even if there was, i dont know how to do it! gahh. i want to kill myself. and ive to live this lifeless 9am to 5pm school life all the way until 31st january. 9 to 5 in school followed by training from 7 to 9. not cool yo. oh well. the last weekend before school started was pretty awesome! met keith and trix on friday night for awhile. nice to meet up awesome friends every week. saturday was fun fun fun. went for frisbee and the sun was super scorching. i got burnt quite badly hahaha. we all MEOWT-ed in the sun. whahhaha. anyways headed down to j8 with jaz and shay for our weekly xlb session. awesome i love xlb! went johor in the evening with jack ling steph and shaun. had alot of seafood. like super super full. and all we paid was 12sgd each. hahahah. so cheapp. spent the night over at steph's place watching dvds. r-point and some silly cat show. wth.

oh well. i sure hope my weekdays pass quicker and weekends last longer
so so tired of these long long hours. bah

我已经感觉到疲累,只想在你怀抱入睡

2008-10-06T14:01:00.002+08:00

how quickly time passes!
its now my last week of the holidays and school starts next week =(
i am so not looking forward to my last 4 months before graduation.
anyhow, the weekend was quit fun. i love weekends.
had the final two blocks of six games for the world cup selections. made the finals but couldnt outscore yuwee. his carry was amazing yesterday! grats on going mexico! had shiyan's farewell party thingy at her place on saturday night. wasnt very exciting though the company there was quite good. though i really really wanted to attend lifehouse live in singapore =( ah well, after the selections on sunday, headed down to sentosa with some of the frisbee peeps. bams, chloe, cirong, spencer, shay and bern. watched the asian ultimate beach frisbee championship semis and finals. super exciting. the way they pass and catch. alot of stuff not humanly possible, they did. HAHAHAH. toss around the disc for abit before heading back to meet shaun for dinner. all in all, i super fufilling weekend! didnt waste any second of it. oh well, think i'll go for a swim later on! tata

2008-09-30T22:36:00.000+08:00

its raining so heavily
im falling sick
such a bad bad mood im in.

bleagh

2008-09-28T15:56:00.003+08:00

heh so its that sunday again.
i dont quite like sundays. somehow i always feel that sundays are gloomy and boring. nothing fun ever seems to happen on sundays hahahah.

the weekend was more or less quite fun! keith and trix came over for dinner i prepared. okay i helped prepared hahaha. had a poker session after that when the rest came over. headed down to zouk to meet a few friends and bring my sister home. nothing much happened on friday night. saturday was fun tho! went with shay and jazzy for frisbee again. oh my i love frisbee laaa. its just so so fun and a damn good workout. headed over to j8 for XLB =)=)=) with jazzy. weekly routine. hahah super shiok. but ate quite a bit that day. went to meet keith and trix again in town. man so depressing. i couldnt buy anything the whole day =( im broke. hahahah. went to chill at balcony to watch and learn about f1! hahahah.

well its sunday today and its my auntie's birthday! happy birthday agnes ah yi!
just came back from my aunt's house and the weather seems too gloomy to go for a run. think im just going to slack around at home before heading down to andrew's tonight.
school's starting in two weeks time. bah. dont like dont like. but then again i cant wait to graduate and move on to whatever awaits me.

okay im going to go take my little afternoon nap =)
night

2008-09-22T16:58:00.003+08:00

okay im back blogging after a week.
weekend was quite fun! friday night was spent at stef chen's 18 birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEFANIE! left pretty early cos had to get ready for world cup roll off the next morning. ahhh the roll off, so pissed off about it. i was bowling quite alright until the second block of 6 games where i kept moving left and my scores were like 192 169 166 165 =(( until i decided to move out right and managed to cover a little 205 246. boo! headed to vivo to meet jack ling and ambrose for lunch and arcade! haha. anyhow, went to meet shay and jaz to go over to spencer's place for a frisbee gathering! pretty fun watching liverpool play stoke's 8-1-1 formation, mahjong, TABOO! as well as lots and lots of beer =DD hahah. frisbee the next day was great too. hahah i lovee frisbee =) bah no xlb this week though =(

though i did the dumbest thing upon reaching home. i took a short nap after frisbee and my mummy woke me up to have tea with my family downstairs. i threw my legs in the air to lift myself off the bed and i pulled my calf muscle. super super bad cramp HAHAHHA. until now, i have to walk with a minor limp =X dinner with shaun ambrose and steph at COCA. mann had so much frigging golden mushrooms and beef. i think im going to avoid those for awhile hahaha. poker session at steph's and that rounds up my rest-less weekend!

cant wait for the next weekend =)

2008-09-15T04:45:00.002+08:00

thanks pek for this song.
(just another really pretty nice emo song with great lyrics)

justin timberlake - never again

would have given up my life for you
guess it's true what they say about love, it's blind
girl, you lied straight to my face lookin' in my eyes
and I believed you 'cause I loved you more than life
and all you had to do was apologize

you didn't say you're sorry
i don't understand
you don't care that you hurt me
and now i'm half a man
that i used to be when it was you and me
you didn't love me enough
my heart may never mend
and you'll never get to love me again
no, no, no, no, no, no, no

sadness has me at the end of the line
helpless watched you break this heart of mine
and loneliness ~~only wants you back here with me~~
common sense knows you're not good enough for me
and all you had to do was apologize and mean it

but you didn't say you're sorry
i don't understand
you don't care that you hurt me
and now i'm half a man
that i used to be when it was you and me
you didn't love me enough
my heart may never mend
and you'll never get to love me

it's like hell, i can't go back in time
maybe then i could see how
forgiveness says that i should give you one more try
but it's too late, it's over now
hey...ooh...ooh...ooh

you didn't say you're sorry
i don't understand
you don't care that you hurt me
and now i'm half a man
that i used to be when it was you and me
you didn't love me enough
my heart may never mend
and you'll never get to love me again, yeah

again, yeah...eah...
again, again, again, yeah, yeah...
~~never get to love me~~

我还能怎么做怎么做都是错.

2008-09-12T14:55:00.002+08:00

hello everyone
sorry i havent been blogging in quite a bit.
ahh i cant sleep. the friggin construction outside my house is making my whole entire house tremble like mad you know. and besides, i get super super freaky dreams that just wont stop haunting me, went to the gym today. really had a full body workout. its been awhile since i did that. now my whole body is aching all over. shiok man =) hahaha.
its been awhile since i did many many things. such as watching a movie. watched a local production yesterday. money no enough 2. its not that bad just that i thought it was pretty long, 2 over hours hahaha. i dont quite like going to movies, they make me very emo and sad. i dont know why. okay enough said.

on a lighter note, happy birthday chappy!
and thank god its friggin friday =)

我爱着谁爱到我有点醉
你不会累但我却爱你爱得好累

2008-08-28T13:03:00.003+08:00

okay so im back from my thailand trip.
the lanes there seemed really tough man. they bowl the long further right as compared to the short, hahah something i havent seen before. well i just hope the singapore guys hang in there and there's just the singles left so hopefully they can get back something =) daddy just got discharged today so i guess i'll be spending time at home with him. went down to zouk for yesterday and it was really fun. catching up with long lost friends i havent seen in months and all. okay im tired so i'll just upload some pictures to let it do the talking about my trip to thailand!

air asia mini plane!

yuwee and i after his trios

there were alot of bowling superstars there and including a few celebs:

tommy jones =)

choi bok eum

osku palermaa and chris barnes

mika koivuniemi

rhino page

heck, even tarzan was there! haha trophilactic*

and this really adorable giant dog at some dog show =)

2008-08-21T23:38:00.002+08:00

ahhh
one last paper tomorrow. and i realise i only need 20/100 to pass the entire module because i did pretty well for my other part of my entire module =)
so that managed to cut me off some stress. hahahah. and after that its off to thailand to see the singa-boys(men) bowl the world men cship. hahaha. i cant believe im going up to support them.
but i guess it'll be a good break from all the hectic school work ive been suffering the past few weeks. cant waittt..
well ive nothing much happening to blog about.
unless you wanna hear how radio waves are transmitted and that to count the value or the EOQ you gotta square root two multiplied by unit cost multiplied by demand over holding cost. HAHAHA.

okay i shall attempt something more exciting soon =)

连你一个微笑也都会让我醉
难道笑容没了距离有了快乐也走了

2008-08-17T20:29:00.002+08:00

ahhh. i just realised, im about five days to my two months of freedom!
but but, the next five days are going to be torturous man.
IMGT assignment due followed by IMGT exam on wednesday and WT exam on friday.
gahhh. save me =( anyway im going up to thailand on friday night with lenny to watch the guys bowl in the world mens cship. since im not selected to go, the only way i can contribute is by rahrahing them there. hahahha. sigh. i might regret going but oh well.
weekend was quite alright, friday night was spent playing mahjong with geri and shay, initially but thats a whole different matter. hahaha. went for training on saturday at 1pm and met shaun after that. wandered around town the whole entire day with shaun followed by dinner with lenny jack and ling at crown centre. poker throughout the night. sunday was quite alright, woke up late for frisbee and i only managed about 10minutes of play before the rain and wind told us to stop. took a cab down to paragon for xiaolongbao with jazzy and shay followed by dessert at sushi tei. hahah. we walked all the way from town back to jazzy's place before hitching a cab with shay.

sitting in my dining room now watching singapore's paddlers lose straight sets to china in an olympic finals isnt the way i want to describe what im doing now but it is. its quite frustrating watching the match actually. but i just have to watch it, i cant explain why. hahah. i need to do up my assignment and study for something i have no idea about. ahh. the amount of stress im under. really sucks!

cool i really like the chorus of 《情非得已》- 庾澄庆

只怕我自己会爱上你敢让自己靠的太近
怕我没什么能够给你爱你也需要很大的勇气
只怕我自己会爱上你也许有天会情不自禁
想念只让自己苦了自己

2008-08-10T18:32:00.002+08:00

so i had my first ultimate frisbee lesson yesterday.
i wasnt good at throwing or catching. hahahaha. all i was useful for was intercepting and knocking down the perfectly calm looking flying frisbee. hahah though its a really fun sport i must say =) had a xiaolongbao feast at dintaifung after frisbee with jazzy geri shayna and willie. gah. i love xlb!

headed downt to meet keith and trix for national day.
it was pretty fun, the rain didnt really dampen any mood whatsoever.
though it was supposed to be the four of us... ah lets not even go there.
so the aerial display was really great. loved the heart they drew, i uploaded the video on my facebook so go take a look alright =) ouu the fireworks were really really awesome. very pretty.
i love love love fireworks man! anyhow, we human trafficed out of the crowd and headed to en grill for dinner. the food was superb and the company was great. yesterday was a good day =)

today on the other hand, not so productive. stayed at home the whole day. finally watched high school musical after so long. hahaha. quite a cute show. parents just left for the instana and im so damn bored, think im going to meet shay and play mahjong. boo.

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
who would have known? =p

2008-08-07T15:30:00.002+08:00

orlando =))

MY POOR ACHING BACK!
i think i injured or strained my back. but i cant seem to find the cause of it.
could it be the new timing that im being forced to change to
could it be my horrible sitting and sleeping posture
could it be the running i overexerted two days ago
or could it just be all in my head.

anyway, this is hilarious.
so at this very moment, im sitting in the atrium of my school. there's about 100 people in the whole school right now. im so stupid, its already thursday and there have been no lessons this entire week. WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING IN SCHOOL! hahahahha. shit i didnt even know there's no lesson. bah. silly boyy.

kae i said my peace. blog back again soon i promise.

it only takes two heart attacksto finally make you see
one of them won't do it
but the second will set you free
tell all your hate and anger
it's time to say good bye
and that is just what I will do
as soon as those bastards I work for die
lalalalalalalalalala...

2008-08-05T10:26:00.002+08:00

so training started yesterday.
first day returning to the bowling alley and my bowling completely changed.
i dont quite like this new timing they asked me to bowl. i feel so not eugene low when i bowl now. hahahahah. but im just going to give it a chance. try to believe in the system and maybe, just maybe it'll work out well haha.

just ran to lenny's place with carl. and i did the dumbest thing, i ran back home hahahhaha.
I SWEAR I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO WALK NORMALLY AGAIN.
my calves and thighs are so freaking TIGHT. i walk like FRANKENSTEIN. hahah.
okay enough rubbish, going to meet shaun for lunch now.
just a short short entry.

everybody is falling ill, GET WELL SOON EVERYBODY!

2008-08-02T05:46:00.003+08:00

so i just reached back home from merli's birthday party.
not as rowdy as i thought it would be, but it was quite fun =)
great company and good friends catching up over some friendly poker! haha
friday night was my break night from all my assignments and all. so i guess its back to the microsoft word and into the essays again! goodness me. i cant really sleep at the moment. too much things on my mind. oh btw i didnt make the world mens' squad. i guess i still have alot to work on my game or something. coaches say think im not ready for it ): they will only be sending five men instead of usual six. hahah beats me why their doing it but its been confirmed. i sure hope the guys bowl well in thailand! i might even go up and rah rah them on.

i love the song lyrics!
thanks trix for the song once again.

Maybe - Jay Sean

Beep Beep oh look now there goes my phone
And once again im just hoping its a text from you..mm..
It aint right read ur messages twice thrice
Four times a night its true
Everyday I patiently wait
Feeling like a fool but I do, anyway
Nothing can feel as sweet and as real
Cuz I know that I wasn't waiting in vain..

And maybe its true
Im caught up on you
Maybe there's a chance your stuck on me too
So maybe im wrong
Its all in my head
Maybe we're afraid of words we both haven't said

Im always connected online
Hooked on myspace all the time
Hoping you've Checked my profile
Just can't help wondering why,You play it cool but,
I'm hopelessly falling for you, Every night on the phone I'm..
In love with you, and I know you like it girl
All joking aside,
Let's see you and I Come out and say what we're trying to hide..

And maybe its true
Im caught up on you
Maybe there's a chance your stuck on me too
So maybe im wrong
Its all in my head
Maybe we're afraid of words we both haven't said

Like I really want you,I think I need you,
Baby I miss you,I'm thinking of you [x2][Guitar Solo]

And maybe its true (OH)
Im caught up on you (maybe, yeah)
Maybe there's a chance your stuck on me too (Stuck on me too)
So maybe im wrong (Hey baby, yeah..)
Its all in my head.. (OH NO)
Maybe we're afraid of words we both haven't said (both haven't said)

And Maybe Its True Im Caught Up On You
Maybe Theres A Chance You're Stuck On Me Too
So Maybe Im Wrong, And Its All In My Head
Maybe We're Afraid Of Words We Both Hadnt Said
Maybe it's true..(Baby I Miss You)
I'm caught up on you (Look I Want You)
Maybe I am wrong Baby I miss you...

maybe...

2008-07-31T04:16:00.002+08:00

its 4 in the morning and im wide awake. slept from 4pm to 10pm just now. goodness me, trying to do my assignment but i just cannot think with a clear head. i gotta sort things out soon man. boo. oh well, i hope everything gets back to normal soon. i cant imagine going through everyday with these thoughts in my head. ahh the freaking amount of stress thats piling up =(

Don't blink, don't close your eyes, But most of all don't apologize. It's me who's got the demons to wrestle now. There's a patch of blue in the stormy sky, A memory of a brighter time. When everything was new, and less watered down, Before the summer turned to brown.

okay goodnight world, im going to sleep now =/

2008-07-30T10:52:00.003+08:00

okay so its been 36hours since ive been back.
all in all the trip was terrific! definately my best overseas trip with the team so far. ahhh i dont want to come back to singapore and face reality! BAH. i miss my teammates! what to do what to do. so ive like 4 assignments due within the span of about 10 days. exams coming up in 2 weeks time and im feeling very very stressed with the amount of work i have piled up for me. on a lighter note, i really hope i get to go for world mens even though i kinda screwed up in florida, then again i have to decide how much im willing to give up for my bowling. the past day or so have been pretty depressing i must say. i dont know why but im just feeling so moody and lonely. gahh. its just a sudden feeling i dont even know why im getting. like a real heavy heart. i didnt do anything wrong or have to feel guilty about anything but i actually feel very down. might be having too much fun in hong kong and orlando the past month but this feeling and emotion never happened to me before. i dont like =/

something's bugging me and im not too sure what it is myself
enlighten me please

okay my attempt to keep my blog alive was kinda lousy. i shall try harder when i get the blogging mood.

2008-07-24T07:33:00.002+08:00

team event is over.
so is world youth
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2008-07-21T11:05:00.002+08:00

ahh i feel sick. had to finish up that last piece of pizza and not put it to waste. hahahha.
oh well my room is in a huge huge mess. anyway done with singles already and i kinda messed up. scores werent that fantastic but my carry was horrible. oh well. 200 170 172 215 216 191 for me. gahh. that put me in 77th position man. doubles event in about 13 hours time and im quite psyched about it. partnering ben =) yay. so wish me luck people! btw congrats to jasmine on her bronze medal. awesome stuff.

i dont want to go back to home yet. im just beginning to enjoy myself overseas =/ gahhh

goodnight everyone

2008-07-15T12:50:00.002+08:00

orlandooo

im here already! 20 hours in the air and im finally here in orlandooo =)
did some retail therapy today. the premium outlets here are pretty good!
shopped from outlet shops like boss, ck, banana republic, a/x, fcuk and many many more.
i think i will go broke in a few days time at this rate. but seriously yo, the shopping here beats singapore's orchard road anytime! hahahah everywhere is sale sale sale sale sale! sweet! ive been feeling tired by 6pm everyday since landed. need to get my sleeping hours in check man. looking forward for the championship to start. simply cant wait. i love the adrenaline of such tournaments! ahh but that would mean that i'd be heading back to school. and ive so so much work to do, its simply no joke! gahh, okay im going to tuck in now, its 1am in the morning already. night!

2008-07-10T00:41:00.002+08:00

yayy we got bronze for the men's trios. just 19pins from silver but im contented with a bronze i guess. at least i dont go back empty handed. done with asian champs already. didnt make the masters and we were pretty close to getting a team event medal until the long oil. ahhh. oh well it was tough. few more days in hong kong and i'll be heading over to florida =) hopefully i'll strike some medals there too! thanks for all the well wishes. cant wait to go back to singapore!

lets go singapore lets go!

2008-07-05T17:53:00.002+08:00

all good luck messages should come now.
anytime soon.... hahahha i need all the freaking morale i can get.
going to start really really soon. im dressing up my thumb and all while waiting for the lanes to get oiled. man its cold in this alley. and im getting a little nervous but really feeling pretty confident at the same time. gahhh give me the booze =(

2008-07-03T00:09:00.002+08:00

its been a long day!
had 2 hours of unofficial practice today. lanes were really nice to bowl. didnt get a chance to bowl the long and short oil though. gahh. it was just house conditions. only problem i faced was the approach. really really slippery. hahah anyhow. we headed to some buffet lunch with super duper awesome waffles and crepes :) yummy! went mongkok and tsim sha tsui for shopping shopping. hahaha. bought some shirt there. half my allowance is gone! hahah. had really good hongkong food for dinner. i had some oyster congee. super yummy! the food in hong kong is overall pretty good. think im going to be one fat boy like i used to be when i get back to singapore hahahahah. going to nap real soon. boo the internet here is frigging expensive. canot afford to use it everynight man =(

ahh its wednesday night and my body is not used to not being at mambo this time of the week. hahaha. all i can do is just sit down and listen to my mambo playlist. rahhh. okay going to sleep now. cya everyone! pray i get some medals okay =)

2008-07-02T00:32:00.002+08:00

i really should be asleep, even my roommate slept already, heh.
its 1233am and ive to wake up early in the morning to bowl.
just touch down in hong kong this morning at 1000hr.
its been a long long day. hong kong is pretty alright, seems like there is alot of shopping to do, and the people here are quite friendly i guess. air a little stale but its bareable. my my, the hotel is super nice, like a flat screen 26" tv or something like that. one of the best hotels ive been to thus far in competition. but the darn internet is so expensive. hmm gonna blow most of my allowance on the internet for sure. plan for tomorrow would be breakfast, unofficial practice till 12 and then lunch and rest and recreation i guess. teammates were thinking of going to watch hancock but im afraid that it'll all turn out dubbed over in cantonese and i dont understand a word of cantonese. hahah. talking about movies, please please dont watch WANTED. though it stars angelina jolie and all, its a really bad show with a terrible story line! i want to watch so many shows, the black knight, hancock, deception, 21, many many more. haven been watching movies since like feb or smth. about time to start again. okay will check back and blog again.

the song maybe by jay sean is nice =)
thanks trix!

2008-06-30T12:02:00.002+08:00

arghh! so much to do with so little time.
packing my luggage now and omg, ive so so much clothes to pack for 3 weeks!
grr just the 6 competition polo, 6 training tees, 4 pants and 1 track pants is stuffing my bag already. booo. ive been lacking alot of sleep of late man. last night was probably the first night in almost a week i slept before 3am. i fell asleep actually haha. so today i still have to collect my phantom from the pro shop, meet some friends for lunch, pack the remaining of my bag, double check my bowling balls, pack my laptop and stuff. arghhh.
im leaving later at 4am. SO SO RUSH YOU KNOW OMG. cannot take it.
okay im going to get ready and head to town now now now.

i just had the worst sunday of my life. dont ask why, i cant explain why it was so lousy either. hahaha im just weird i guess. yesterday was spent having team lunch and a movie with the entire guys team. headed back home awhile and went to bowl at the club. bowling makes me happy. in one way or another. oh well, sunday is gone, tomorrow will be a better day =)

~~these days aren't easy anymore.~~

2008-06-24T00:36:00.002+08:00

ahh havent blogged in super duper long.
and i thought i'd update my life a little bit down here.
been training hard, everyday. simulation started this week. and man i feel pretty ready for the upcoming two championships! every week i look forward to the upcoming mambo and weekend! this wednesday is going to be super awesome! hahah. last saturday was down at mos to watch dj ayoji spin. man he is one hella freaky guy. his whole eye seems to be nothing else but white. and his hair is just cool in his own way.
just got my briefing for the upcoming two championships. will be leaving for hongkong on the 1st of july. all the way till the 12th where the world youth team will proceed from hongkong to florida =) woohoo. till the 26th! okay im super duper tired and i'll blogged back soon these few days!

PROMISE =)

2008-06-18T09:40:00.001+08:00

From open road album
Love it has so many beautiful faces
Sharing lives and sharing days
My love it had so many empty spaces
Im sharing a memory now I hope thats how it stays
Now Im deep inside love and still breathing
She is holding my heart in her hand
Im the closest Ive been to believing
This could be love forever

All throughout my life the reasons Ive demanded
But how can I reason with the reason Im a man

In a minute Im needing to hold her
In an hour Im cold, cold as stone
When she leaves it gets harder and harder to face life alone
Now my dreams are filled with times when were together
Guess what I need from her is forever love

2008-06-16T03:48:00.002+08:00

sigh somethings bugging me.
i cant seem to sleep. grr freaking 350am and i cant sleep.
and furthermore, ive gym at 10am =( dont know how im going to wake up.

each time we we're alone...

2008-06-10T17:31:00.001+08:00

a couple of years ago...

what do you hear when a man jumps from the 10th storey?
AHHHHHHHHH piak!

what do you hear when a man jumps from the 20th storey?
AHHHHHHHHH (huff) AHHHHHHHHH piak

what do you hear when a man jumps from the 2nd storey?
AHH piak ouch!

2008-06-02T09:50:00.000+08:00

this anniversary may never be the same

010606

2008-06-01T23:28:00.000+08:00

i tried to stop.
now its eating me up inside

2008-05-28T12:19:00.002+08:00

ahhh ive so much work to complete and im so so screwed!
lets see:
SCM, PI, IMGT and WT common tests are next week (all of which i haven really started preparing yet and im so so so screwed. esp imgt. ZOMG)
Event Comm project proposal due on friday (thats like a 30 page proposal with timeline and all that crap about some travel fair that im suppose to organize)
PI revision is also due tonight at 2359hrs (furthermore im bowling two squads after school. gotta rush =/)
youth masters on friday(its so early in the morning, i'll be tired =/)
men masters after the youth followed by saturday(its after the youth, i'll be even more tired )= )
vicotry banquet on saturday(bad bad food with smart casual attire. sigh)

so my sunday would seem pretty packed but im all keen to head to batam with steph jason and all for a spa getaway. sounds so fun man. hmmm i'll see how it goes. omg. i havent felt so so much stress in ages man. i didnt even know the friggin common test starts next week. i would have skipped class if i wasnt on low attendance notification. been skipping alot to go bowl mqs for singapore open. but then again its not every year i get such nice lanes. i really have a shot at this and im not going to mess up for sure! or i hope i dont. so much at stake, its like singapore open decides my fate for hong kong's asian bowling champs and florida's world youth =)) and those tournaments will ultimately decide my fate for world mens in thailand at the end of the year. hahaha. really gotta work hard if i want to get there.

on the lighter side to note, im having a pretty relax and slow paced life now. moments come and go pretty lightly. i have the best teammates and group of friends to help me through anything. step by step, everythings gonna be alright, tomorrow will definately be a brighter day. and its still a long long painful journey down the road. i know its not the end yet. well my days are like routine lately. this is a typical past week:
wake up for school, if not fcuk school and head to have lunch with whoever
lunch will probably be at holland village, vivocity or town. really depends
after which we'll head to mt faber to look see and kaypoh where we'll meet everybody else!
probably go have dinner after that at some fancy dancy place.
followed by dessert, supper and more desserts. hahaha. mainly chocolate lava cake and frolick/yoguru! hahaha its practically eating every day!

its been so long since i blogged so much. must be the stress hitting me. and i have been a good boy. pretty sober for a week now. hahaha. just maybe a few glasses with dad some nights. nothing too heavy. just chilling time with the folks haha. alright i better go do up my work now =)

see youuu

2008-05-26T12:15:00.002+08:00

okay okay okay!
NO MORE DISTRACTIONS.
im halfway done with my scm assignment which was due like 12 hours ago.
whahahha. crap im so so screwed.

i learn alot from bowling.
like how to shut things out. distraction distracts attention. somebody told me that before but i dont even know who! hahahah. shut your eyes, your ears, your mouth and your head. its not going to be easy but we all must learn to someday to be a better bowler!

2008-05-23T12:21:00.002+08:00

singapore open have been going great for me.
finally i can focus and bowl properly. its been awhile since i took stuff off my mind!
i qualified for the youth and men's division already. or at least i think im pretty safe.
shot a 939 for youth and a 946 for the men! took me awhile to read and understand the lanes. however, i really need to try and figure out the fresh oil.
really mind BOTTLING. whahahahah
but singapore open have been great. been able to spend more time with teammates. its really like going on a overseas trip just that its singapore. hahah. breakfast till supper! awesome!

thank god its friday! i need to do up my scm assignment soon.
ahhh i dont even wanna start on it!
and parents are coming back on sunday. i cant wait to see them!

after awhile, you'll understand.

2008-05-21T08:26:00.000+08:00

i fucked up

2008-05-21T00:35:00.002+08:00

ahh just came back from dempsey.
goodness. two nights having so much dessert. im bound to put on weight man =(
anyway, i bowled 2 mqs today. didnt really do very well. 615 and 822.
think i would need a high 885+ to be safe. ahh god wish me all the best for tomorrow =)

rules are meant to be broken, seems like promises are like rules =/

2008-05-20T08:15:00.002+08:00

singapore open starts today.
dang. my ankle still havent fully recovered yet.
ive got two squads to bowl today. 230 and 4. now lets hope i qualify on my first attempt =)
parents went overseas this morning. will have nobody at home for a whole week.
whahaha. but then again, that means i have to cab to school everyday. and im too lazy to call.
oh well. nothing much have been happening lately i guess. a few things i can get to look forward to are:

champion league finals =)
end of my freaking assignments
singapore open!
weekend ;)

oh talking about assignment, damn supply chain assignment is due this sunday and im barely 200 words into that 2000 word essay. crappp. gotta start on it pretty soon =( okay i gotta head to class now. cya!

2008-05-18T02:15:00.001+08:00

~~lies~~

2008-05-14T08:46:00.002+08:00

ahh i dont like rainy days like today.
its days like that which makes me wanna sleep in the whole entire day.
lousy start to a nice wednesday morning.
anyhow, school have been pretty much boring lately, just attending classes and trying to understand how supply chain is related to inventory management. hahaha.
at least one thing i can look forward to is singapore open which starts next week =)
its like ive been waiting forever for a tournament to help take my mind off things. at least then i'll be concentrating a little bit more on my bowling than anything else.
and this time i must must must have some results. im done with almost bowling like crap in local tournaments. heard the lanes are going to be flooded! sounds pretty crappy haha.

okay so that was my unsuccessful attempt to keep this blog alive.
though i have half the mind to close it down hahah.
ahh some things i will never ever understand.
why? why? why..........

2008-05-08T09:28:00.002+08:00

You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together always
I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to know

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

Our memories
Well, they can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening
As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands
I sit and cry

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are...
You and me I can see us dying...are we?

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't tell me cause it hurts!
I know what you're saying
So please stop explaining

Don't speak,
don't speak,
don't speak,
oh I know what you're thinking
And I don't need your reasons
I know you're good,
I know you're good,
I know you're real good
Oh, la la la la la la La la la la la la
Don't, Don't, uh-huh Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush
don't tell me tell me cause it hurts
Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush don't tell me tell me cause it hurts

hurts like a @#&*%&*

2008-05-05T02:14:00.000+08:00

irreconcilable differences

substantial incompatibility between marriage partners that is a broad ground for esp. no-fault divorce?

2008-04-26T14:39:00.005+08:00

three cheers for five years - mayday parade
(thanks jas for the awesome song!)

I swear that you don't have to go
I thought we could wait for the fireworks
I thought we could wait for the snow
To wash over Georgia and kill the hurt
I thought I could live in your arms
And spend every moment I had with you
Stay up all night with the stars
Confess all the faith that I had in you

Too late, I'm sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words so sing along for me baby
For heaven's sake I know you're sorry
But you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same

I(you) thought with a month of apart
Together would find us an opening
And moonlight would provide the spark
And that I would stumble across the key
Or break down the door to your heart
Forever could see us not you and me
And you'd help me out of the dark
And I'd give my heart as an offering

And I will always remember you as you are right now to me
And I will always remember now
Sleep alone tonight with no one here just by your side
How does he feel, how does he kiss
How does he taste while he's on your lips
I can't forget you
I know you want me to want you
I want to
But I can't forgive you
So when this is over don't blow your composure baby

I can't forgive you
I know you want me to want you I want to

this song has so much emotion inside. its so hard not to like it.
lonely weekend this one. so much more of these to come :(

2008-04-24T00:30:00.002+08:00

you dont know me, you dont even care.
you dont love me, a second chance i'd wouldnt dare .
would i? could i?

its hard trying to frown when you are laughing
vice versa.
have you ever tried smiling when you cry?

2008-04-22T10:42:00.005+08:00

Used to - Chris Daughtry

You used to talk to me like

I was the only one around.

You used to lean on me like

The only other choice was falling down.

You used to walk with me like

We had nowhere we needed to go,

Nice and slow, to no place in particular.

We used to have this figured out;

We used to breathe without a doubt.

When nights were clear, you were the first star that I'd see.

We used to have this under control.

We never thought.

We used to know.

At least there's you, and at least there's me.

Can we get this back?

Can we get this back to how it used to be?

I used to reach for you when

I got lost along the way.

I used to listen.

You always had just the right thing to say.

I used to follow you.

Never really cared where we would go,

Fast or slow, to anywhere at all.

We used to have this figured out;

We used to breathe without a doubt.

When nights were clear, you were the first star that I'd see.

We used to have this under control.

We never thought.

We used to know.

At least there's you, and at least there's me.

Can we get this back?

Can we get this back to how it used to be?

I look around me,

And I want you to be there

'Cause I miss the things that we shared.

Look around you.

It's empty, and you're sad

'Cause you miss the love that we had.

You used to talk to me like

I was the only one around,

The only one around.

We used to have this figured out;

We used to breathe without a doubt.

When nights were clear, you were the first star that I'd see.

We used to have this under control.

We never thought.

We used to know.

At least there's you, and at least there's me.

Can we get this back?

Can we get this back to how it used to be? Yeah.

To how it used to be.

To how it used to be, yeah.

To how it used to be.

things USED TO be perfect. now everything seems to stop

minutes pass like hours, even in lectures. months would seem unbearable

God, have the world moving or have i stopped my world from moving ):

2008-04-18T10:50:00.004+08:00

sun - daphne loves derby

I'm desperate to know how you are
I'll be deep asleep
I've been awake for days
I'm tryin' to study
Every inch of your body
In this picture
From a distant day
When I could safely say
Nothing in this world
Could tear me down in any way
But like a dream
You dissapeared
Without a sound
Without a trace

Sleep well, darlin'
Where ever you are
I hope that you're happy tonight
And maybe you found someone to have you right
Sleep well, darlin'
I'm desperate to say
Now I need you more than ever
But all I can say was goodnight

This is for a girl back home
She tore down all my walls
Left me for all she'd known
But I pushed it all away from me
And I don't know
Even if i knew
Even if i knew what to say to you
It's just to late to make you stay
I'm sick of fighting
This broken fate
If someone else gets to tell you
That you're beautiful

Sleep well, darlin'
Where ever you are
I hope that you're happy tonight
And maybe you found someone to have you right
Sleep well, darlin'
I'm desperate to say
Now I need you more than ever
But all I can say was goodnight

It's the last thing I want
But it's all that I've got
It's the last thing that I need
But it's to carry you in my heart

It's the last thing I want
But it's all that I've got
It's the last thing that I need
But it's to carry you in my heart
In my heart

Sleep well, darlin'
Where ever you are
I hope that you're happy tonight
And maybe you found someone to have you right
Sleep well, darlin'
I'm desperate to say
Now I need you more than ever
But all I can say was goodnight..

and all i can say is goodnight/bye love :(

2008-04-15T13:10:00.002+08:00

so im sitting here at starbucks on a tuesday afternoon.
if only there it was raining heavily, with the water sliding down the glass panels. then it would make the surrounding more dramatic.
with 'whatever will be will be' playing in the background.
school started today. i wont see my old classmates in class anymore.
apparently we have very very differeny time tables. and it really sucks to have such a timetable. i'll be having 4 different groups of classmates. so that means i wont have people to buddy buddy with this entire semester. nothing seems to be going right of late. sigh put me back on the lanes please.

2008-04-14T00:36:00.002+08:00

i saw it coming. i think.

so ive been hinted that im going for world youth.
nobody to share my joys with. only my teammates and parents are happy for me.
so my whole dream this year of going world youth was just worth that 5cents afterall.

2008-04-05T22:51:00.002+08:00

yeap my bowling ball passed. got my 15grand and im about to leave for thailand.
hmmm. so whats next?

listening to emo songs the whole day on a barely full 80gb ipod can really make you feel good.
in a way of course, every song you put inside that special playlist have a special meaning. so you cant always say that a song is particularly nice because of the lyrics. what im trying to say is that we should always try to listen out to the words and expression of the artists. it really makes certain songs feel much more special or meaningful (if you're lucky) to yourself. artists make brilliant songs and chart toppers with just that little bit of emotion and good fortune.but those songs actually express alot of anguish, hate, love, desire and so much more. at the same time feel smart by reading in between the lines and hey what do you know, the song has a hidden message in them.

write down feeling and emotions. maybe one day we can write a hit single too =)

ahh im just crapping over a day of listening to alot of songs. hahaha.
just came back from interclub, bowled 18 24 23 or smth like that. easy lanes. just couldnt find the carry when i got the pocket. man ive got to sleep soon. need to wake up early tomorrow morning! goodnight world!

2008-04-04T11:02:00.001+08:00

X X X X X X X X X XXX 300

fifteen grand

now i hope my ball passes the weighing test.

never weighed that ball before. grr

2008-03-31T16:46:00.003+08:00

darn. its been almost an entire month since i last blogged.
hmmm. oh well, i just came back from malaysia open. must say that it has been my best overseas championship which i performed so far. up a total of 700+ pins from every single game i bowled. haha. my score of 910 was enough to qualify for youth but my 929 was reserve for mens open. so im quite pleased with my performance just that my ball feeling is really crappy. team singapore is sort of like my external family. somehow you feel very part of the team and i like that homely feeling. so this trip have been boring all the way and it was more of a team bonding trip to kick start the new bowling season i guess. im selected to go compete in thailand open next week. will be leaving on tuesday and coming back on monday. means i only have about 10 days break in singapore from malaysia and 10 days to spend with my family and girlfriend. havent seen them in ages. though i had dinner with elle an hour on arriving in singapore. so thats not too bad (: oh damn, i lost my freaking wallet on the first day upon arriving in KL. i left my wallet in my bag but damn it wasnt there. hmm, maybe it got stolen. school is going to start really really soon and i hope i get nice friendly classmates and that they wont eat me alive haha. not very keen on going back to school but i have no choice. oh im trying to start my healthly lifestyle again. lets see how i did yesterday, had porridge for breakfast, ran 6km with carl in the afternoon. had tomato soup, mushroom salad and organic soy milk for lunch. dinner was glutinous rice with steam duck. hahaha not bad not bad. so lets see how long i can keep up with this lifestyle. okay i gotta hit the sack soon. night eveybody.
i promise i will try to blog more often yeah. try to leave me a tagg!

so many nice songs these days. most are sad, some are just plain loud. hahaha okay forgive my randomness.

2008-03-08T00:20:00.002+08:00

so here i am again trying to resurrect my blog from the dead.
exam results are coming out really soon. grr. how not very exciting at all.

the weekend is here. my weeks pass so quickly, its just mainly mahjong and bowling that have been passing my time. training 4 times a week now. and ive still have a team training tomorrow. afterwhich i have to tend elle's mummy flea market stall with her. so fun so fun. cant wait for tomorrow man. oh well. im getting quite tired. just wanna say congrats to everyone who did well for their a levels =) and cheer up to those who didnt do that fantastic. hahaha.

grr my wow account keeps getting hacked and im so irritated =(
calling blizzard as i blog now..

2008-02-28T14:57:00.002+08:00

okay so its the holidays now.
i have slightly less than two months of free time. i really hope i do pass my final exams man. grr. been wanting to take up some form of boxing. be it kickboxing, muaythai or taebo. though i think i might eventually take up muaythai. quite lazy to go for lessons. my holidays will actually consist of bowling and girlfriend mainly. hahahah. nothing else i really want to do. except the frequently occasional supper meet ups. which my god have made me put on quite a bit of weight.
during this period of time, days pass like skinny caucasian men cycling at 10km/hr along the ecp. you know its moving, you know its passing but it just doesnt feel like it is. slow and insignificant. thats what the days are like. planning to have training every single night. really got to start getting my accuracy and consistency there as preparations for malaysia open end of next month. oh well. i will blog again soon. tata world. btw, im super free so ask me out for a meal anyone!

girlfriend's having lessons everyday. boo. not used to not seeing her 4 days straight. WEEKEND IS HERE THOUGH :D

2008-02-22T01:22:00.002+08:00

HOLY COW.
i can finally blog after so damn long. hahahaha.
sorry had some problem with my laptop internet and my desktop's proxy settings. so the past 20 days since i last blogged have been very eventful. mainly chinese new year, jeong's bday, girlfriend's legal 18th birthday and now my dreaded exams are here. left with one last paper. MAD! and im really going mad. MAD is actually Mobile Application Design. hahahah. i will promise to blog back in the next few days. gotta go study some more. tata world.

note to self : i can no longer hold my liquor as well as i did last time

i love my life right now.
i love my girlfriend even more

2008-02-01T00:44:00.000+08:00

okay so my birthday is over.
a very peaceful birthday i must say. went to school for awhile then headed to holland village to meet elle for lunch at sushi tei! went to look at dogs after that. the dogs are so so cute oh my goodness. babe left and i went to look for my parents are sakuraya at anchorpoint, went down to the club for an hour or so. umm went to meet girlfriend for dinner yet again at fish n co. damn orchard road is so crowded in the night. anyhow walked around after that and i bought myself some shirts from guess.

girlfriend planned an awesome surprise birthday dinner on sunday. thanks to everybody who came down and helped her make it happen;

elvina<3
my sister
pammy
foong
alexius
andrew
washley
bashley
jeremy
lenny
jeong keith
sogetsu!
sharon
howie

...and thank those who helped themselves to my mahjong, room, aircon and lights -.-

all in all thanks babe! i love you so much. best girlfriend in the world <3

and thank for dropping me a message :D

in order of timing:

elvina<3

jiayi

beatrix!

crystal

saratri!

deo!

roseann!

lesley!

jazzy!

bashley!

samuel

lenny

benjamin

mark

cassandra

jonathan

joleen

nick lee

amanda @tp

melvin

hazel

vanessa

fanna

leheng!

zhenhong

zach<3

amanda @rjc

angeline

basil!

michael

anthony

daphne

peiling

mike

bernice

sara-natalie

stephanie

jonathan

germaine

yuling

andrew<3

thanks for remembering my birthday! only two of my bros dropped me a text ><

but its okay. ive go to rush my damn one thousand word report so so soon. ahh blogg in again!

i love you elvina

2008-01-24T09:25:00.000+08:00

o level results are being released today.
i remember how i felt two years ago when i was keeping myself up the whole night with my classmates playing mahjong. its the anxiety of wanting to know your results and not wanting the care free holiday life to end. it just eats you up inside. not a great emotion i must say but we learn to deal with it. all the very best to everyone who is getting back their results today. especially to my dearest elvina. i hope you do well (:
went to mambo last night . haven't been there for about two months. last time i went was during howie's birthday celebration. keith is going off to army soon. i feel the same was as though he is going on a long vacation. just that this time he's going to shave his head for his vacation. and maybe come back skinny. hahah. met alot of long lost friends yesterday. many many barker boys. zhen yang, weichuen, keith and a few more of my classmates. many of them are going into army soon. hmm, wonder what it'll be like when my turn finally comes.

~~dont every leave me because i will fall the greatest fall..~~

2008-01-22T10:47:00.000+08:00

okay so the weekend just passed.
rushed with some project work. which sad to say, my teammates did 87.6% of the work for me.gotta owe it all to alan and zhihui man! thank you so much.

so looked like it was going to be a long and maybe enjoyable day. met babe to watch beauty world (cha cha cha). its really funny man. i think everybody should watch it, featured my i-i-i-ivyy chan poh choo and franky wong fei hong from batu pahat, johor bahru, malaysia. hahahha. i think its outragously hilarious.

after that i went down to kallang to meet trix and keith for jay chou concert. the concert was not bad. not very enjoyable for me but im sure ten thousand other people loved it. haha. though our seats seemed like good seats, when jay chou came out onto stage, everybody (all 31 rows in front) stood up and we had to stand up too. anyhow i left the concert halfway through but thats another story in all.

sunday was spent at sgcc for the open men masters. i didnt really give myself a target to hit, maybe just try to pocket some money. pacing my way fourth after 6 games, i bowled a 170+ and plunged down to eight. parred with a 210 on the 8th game. so after 8 games i was standing 7th i think. almost 150 pins from the lead, ben. with two games left to go i told myself to take it as 24 frames and i want to make 22 good shots or more. needless to say my next two games were 278 and 279 respectively. caught up with the leader and won by 30 pins =) really glad with my last two games because i never fought back so hard before. pocketed two thousand dollars from this tournament and im one more step closer to completing part of my new year resolution :)

having lessons now. shall get back to trying to pay attention.

i might have won on sunday but i was almost the biggest loser with nothing left. nearly..

2008-01-20T12:12:00.001+08:00

ho hum the wind and the rain...

....hanging by a moment here with you
i miss you...

2008-01-15T11:05:00.000+08:00

wow its been almost two whole weeks since i last blogged.
i've never felt more busy than the past few weeks. it seems as though everyday i have something to do. being preoccupied with school, bowling, verena's wedding and on top of all that. i want to spend more time with elle!

well, lets start from na and nick's wedding. i really felt that there is so much joy in weddings. as i watched my cousin and her groom walk down the aisle in the church. boy it was so emotional. like so happy for them kind of thing! and going back to a church after so long really made me feel quite glad. i wanna try to start going back to church again.

went to city harvest on sunday morning with babe. ive heard alot of people saying how its not a very good place to go and all that. that didnt really affect me, its very different there.
i felt that i was at a rock concert where they sing praises to god. pretty cool actually. i guess its a headed a little more to the youth ministry side. hip hop songs with drums and bass. the message for the day was so awesome as well, about forgiveness. and only one person will know why that was meaningful ;)

went to bowl the sgcc open yesterday. bowled not too bad. first squad 206 276 202 185. 869 and i thought that wasnt really safe. second squad was something like 238 256 228 175 final score 897 and that felt really more assuring. went to do up my bowling ball at the shop and headed back home.

exams are coming and my results really need to start moving upwards man. never felt better these few days. though i want to see girlfriend so badly now =(
~~I don't want this moment to ever end.~~

2008-01-02T10:05:00.000+08:00

hello everybody!
its the new year already and ive made some new year resolutions to keep. haha shall list them down at the side later on or something. so so christmas eve was spent with elle. dinner together at en dining. headed down to riverine after that to meet the group just like every other year. pretty fun, drinking and taking pictures. a pretty good night all in all. new year eve was pretty alright too. instead of counting down at changi beach like we do every year. this year we had a bbq on lesley's rooftop garden. really a very nice place to chill excluding the fact that we were not allowed to shout, swear or get wasted. didnt really drink much this festive season. proud of myself (: babe bought me evisu jeans and a polo ralph top for our one year anniversary! so so nice. whats more ive been trying to get my hands on a pair for almost a year. hahaha. i bought us a set of tiffany atlas collection rings. engraved just like the ones we have! okay i'll upload a few pictures from christmas!

2007-12-31T17:36:00.000+08:00

so ive startedy own countdown. hahahaha
<-5h 16mins>
its the last entry for 2007.

well 2007 has been a really spectacular year
now we've come to the end, right at the rear
welcoming the the new first january, the first day
more excitement comes, hip hip hooray
amidst all these, we all will have a new year resolution
i will try to make mine all talk more action =p
getting ready for the new year makes me all excite
make sure i read through this rhyme again, let me recite
as we close in the new year, we bid it farwell, au revoir'
sip some champagne, light up your cigar
hello bright future, my 2008
we'll make sure all goes well, nothing less than a great

iloved2007
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2007-12-30T18:19:00.000+08:00

and today was a bad way to end the year

2007-12-27T12:07:00.000+08:00

hey everyone
my silly attempt to keep this blog alive and kicking. so during the time ive been 'mia' i was down at KL for all stars. goodness. its a real disappointment considering its the only open championship this year which i havent qualified for the masters in. lanes were not really very tough and i felt that i didnt bring bad equipment. just wasnt in form to make the proper shots. really quite a let down this trip. however the team bonding was not bad. we managed to get connecting rooms again so it was like the six of us together in one huge huge room. hahha.

ive been spending alot of time with girlfriend, its been so so fantastic. not seeing her for almost a month till seeing her every single day. there's nothing more i could actually ask for. i brought her out for dinner at en dining for christmas eve. the food was really really good. went to meet her friend nicole and headed down to riverine for countdown. this christmas wasnt really very festive or anything but the love was still there. drank quite a bit and i havent drank that much in awhile. though i didnt get drunk, my daddy told everybody that since he couldnt make it, i will represent him to drink =/ hahaha. so school is starting really soon. like next week or so. will be very caught up with my school work and im getting back my common test papers. lets all pray for me to do well yes.

i cant wait for new year eve :D

2007-12-10T10:12:00.000+08:00

ahhh common test in an hour's time!
totally unprepared. rushing up what ever i can learn in school. thought i should blog a little bit for the weekend. hahahah. weekend was alright. went to watch the national selections. i guess i realise that it takes more than ears to trust advice. hahaha. quite funny to see how everybody bowled their short oil on the inside and the long oil on the outside. whahhaha. had bernice's birthday thing at night with a few of the teammates. goodness. man utd won 4-1 and arsenal lost 2-1 im so so so happy =DD finally get to catch up to that 1 point difference. ohh the rooming list for all stars is out. im rooming with yew bing and willie. goodness its this same three that were issued warning letter last year at malaysia open. this time i'll definately bring an alarm clock with me man. hahahah. its my common test week but i still have half my mind on bowling. my timing and sparing is totally off. havent been training or practicing the past few days. boo. anyway highlight of the year, GIRLFRIEND IS COMING BACK TOMORROW =))) i totally cannot wait to see her again! yay. but for now, i need to freaking mugg.

wish me luck!

2007-12-04T13:19:00.000+08:00

i had one of the worst weekend ever. dont know why but i dont know where all my friends have gone to. first time this entire year, nobody asked me out during the weekend. maybe its because its the first weekend ive spent since elle have left. my weekends are normally spent with her. ahh how i miss her so much. this weekend have been a pretty emo weekend man. just sitting lazing around and listening to sad songs. even though im not that sad. maybe i like to make myself feel damn sad and realise, HEY! its actually not that bad. hahahha. was going through my personal box. or my emo box. really made me so much happier. looking and reading through cards and notes people have written to me. i keep all those stuff and its so meaningful to have an emo box. EVERYBODY SHOULD HAVE ONE. it makes me snigger and i smile to myself looking through my emo box! i have a sudden urge of having XIAO LONG BAO lately. think i might go have it for dinner tonight. hahahha. korean class starts tomorrow, my my. chalhasaeyo to me man. after im done with korean, i want to learn french! and maybe japanese. hahahha. got pretty much alot of assignments due. check in with my blog later :)

2007-12-01T17:26:00.000+08:00

have you ever been alone in a crowded room

where have all my friends gone?
sighh

2007-11-26T09:55:00.000+08:00

hello sad and cruel world. back from asian intercity, jakarta. this trip have been the most enjoyable trip in terms of team bonding and team spirit. but the results were like shit. especially for me. i just dont know why, i cannot make the ball stay on the lanes as long as everybody else could., maybe it was the ball being too aggresive or something. in the end 6 out of the 8 of us came back with at least a bronze medal. and the coach wasnt being very comforting too. said something like, 'you did what you were capable of''. that kind of a statement is enough to make alot of people give up trust in that coach. a coach that puts you down when your already feeling like shit. every shot i make, i walk back to the bowlers area and i see a coach with a very black face. no smiles no nothing. sometimes even shaking his head. what kind of confidence will that pump into my system. anyway im not going to blame him for bowling so badly. its actually my fault. i just have to work with what i have till all stars come. ahh damn it. my wrist hurts like crazy after this trip. i think i aggrevated it during the last few days. oh i heard that three of my team mates are promoted to the national squad next year. shall not say out names here but im wondering. when will i get my luck break? jeesh. whats more girlfriend isnt around to keep me company and spend time with me :( all in all, this trip have been a great TEAM get together. we really tried very hard for that men's team medal. boo. anyway the koreans that were there were damn cute! not just the girls but the guys as well. HAHAHAH. learning alot of new words, chomaneyo - your welcomed, chukanhamiyda - congratulations, korrochi - its okay. hahahha. i'll post up some pictures soon. when i manage to gather all from the coaches and team mates.

it was a good trip guys. team singapore wooooosh!

2007-11-16T09:30:00.000+08:00

okay. so my last hours spent in singapore before i leave for indonesia for asian intercity.
quite excited for it man. though i wont be seeing girlfriend for a really long time.
16nov to 25nov - asian intercity
22nov to 12dec - girlfriend leave for holiday ):
17dec to 23dec - milo all stars

gahh. she'll be back for like six days then i'm going off again. but i promise to be back for christmas. not going down for penang pesta cos then i'll miss christmas and probably new year even as well! nuff said. anyway wednesday i went down to zouk after league to celebrate howie's 21st birthday. mambo night was pretty empty compared to the dozen other times i've been there. empiest one yet. girlfriend came after awhile with her friends and the night didnt last very long. got into some misunderstanding with some other people and i had no mood to carry on with the night. left by 2am! boo. just packed my stuff for jakarta and i keep trying to recall if i missed out anything.

4 competition polo tees, 2 black, 1 orange, 1 blue
4 competition pants, 2 black, 2 grey
1 official practice round neck
1 track pants to sleep in
2 shirts to rotate and sleep in
victory banquet shirt
one set of plain clothing
boxers and socks to match (:
tools kit and toiletries
birkenstock.

thats about it i guess. not going to bring too many things in case my luggage gets excess baggage claims. lunch with girlfriend one last time before i leave. the past week have been one of the best this year. more to come!

thanks babe for being there all the time and no matter how rough or dry things get, we'll always find a way to solve things okay! i love you honeybuns! i cant wait to get back from milo. we're going to have a blast! dont party too hard without me ): i'll be waiting ;p

2007-11-14T12:28:00.000+08:00

hmmm. class is seriously b o r i n g man!
spend a great deal of time with girlfriend the past two days and im really really glad i did =) miss you loads honeybuns! maybe i'll see you tonight at zooo...uk okay! after me league that is. cant wait to see you and i dont regret going for lunch yesterday, thank god things went pretty well and it could have been worse. i love youuu elvina cheongg <3<3

2007-11-12T10:06:00.000+08:00

wooo, really long weekend that just went by.
had training on saturday morning followed by intercity briefing. so im rooming with ben, probably the best choice for me for this trip. leaving this friday and coming back on the following sunday night. will be quite a experience and the chances of getting a medal is quite great. not much competition there from what i heard. went down with parents to vivo city for one of the launches my daddy did. girlfriend came down to meet us and we went shopping for a luggage. hahaha. finally got my own luggage though i thought the kipling one was super cute. went back to get ready for sammyboy's birthday party. first time ive seen the whole group, all dress in shirt and gown. looking smart and pretty. dinner was at this awesome place along ang siang street called the screening room with a beautiful almost vintage open room bar concept. took quite alot of pictures and never have i mixed champagne, white wine, red wine, whisky, vodka and beer. though i didnt drink alot, the mix was really vast and very strong. stopped halfway to gobble down some food instead. sunday was spent at home, gerald came over and it was a pretty dull and boring sunday actually. went over to howie's place for his birthday dinner and i guessed we were pretty disappointed with the attention we got and hospitality at the dinner. headed up to his place after his guest left and we were left alone to watch transformers, nice. while another group went to play mahjong. quite disorganized and very anti social planning i must comment. went back home to watch man u!
its girlfriend honeybuns babykins last paper today! woohoo. im going to give all my time to you before i leave for indonesia on fridya. i loveee you. good luck!

pictures from meag and sam birthday!

birthday boy!

birthday girl!

(b)ashley

foongie and i

bernice and i

me, (w)ashley and sammyboy

you asked for it!

haha pek wanted to go home!

2007-11-07T10:19:00.000+08:00

Sew this up with threads of reason and regret
So I will not forget. I will not forget
How this felt one year six months ago I know
I cannot forget. I cannot forget
I'm falling into memories of you,and things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that I can share with you
I can tell that you don't know me anymore
It's easy to forget, sometimes we just forget
And being on this road is anything but sure
Maybe we'll forget, I hope we don't forget
I'm falling into memories of you,and things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that I can share with you
So many nights, legs tangled tight
Wrap me up in a dream with you
Close up these eyes, try not to cry
All that I've got to pull me through is memories of you
Memories of you
Memories of you
Memories of you
I'm falling into memories of you ,and things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that we can share
Falling into memories of you, and things we used to do

this song is stuck in my head! and its been around one year and six months me and elle have dated already! haha. i love life and its wonderful ups and downs

2007-11-06T13:47:00.000+08:00

managed to get leave from training for two days
getting better already, beginning to be able to move it a little more.
ive a little riddle for you all

'will you circumgyration the macrocosm unanimously female?'

2007-11-05T11:15:00.000+08:00

my coach is such a jerk -.-
"if you sprained your hand, then we'll have to find somebody to replace you right"
"there's no point telling me, i cant do anything, all we can do is wait"

URGHH!
I THOUGHT IT WOULD ONLY BE COURTESY TO LET YOU KNOW THAT I INJURED MYSELF AND NOT LATER YOU FIND OUT AND THINK THAT I TRIED TO HIDE MY INJURY FROM YOU RIGHT. WHY CANT YOU BE MORE UNDERSTANDING INSTEAD OF BEING THINKHEADED ALL THE FREAKING TIME. so much for BOOSTING our morale

2007-11-05T10:17:00.000+08:00

hello everyone
this will be a rather short entry. i sprained my right wrist and its really hard to type.
i feel so stupid, getting injured just a week before i leave for indonesia. damn it the coach is going to flip when he finds out. ahhh. wish me luck everyone. i dont even have the mood to concentrate in class now, my wrist is really bugging me quite badly. i would do almost anything to get it healed now now now! bloody monday blues!

2007-11-01T12:34:00.001+08:00

ahh, are you kidding me

yes i am hooked
the moral of the story is, its always complicated
fame, status, bitching, fashion, love, sex